Jumbled thoughts...
In the shower I write entries in my head. Letters to people, songs, ideas, dreams. Some days it works and some days I spin away - out of control. I begin to rage, I want to scream and curse at different people, or things that have hurt me. Today felt like one of those days, a day when the words would flow without a barrier.
I am beginning to miss things about being involved with someone. Not just the sex, although that is major. I miss the feeling that someone out there worries and cares. I miss the every day companionship of it. The making grilled cheese sandwiches and watching television evenings. Sharing jokes and giggling in bed. Just the little joys of a relationship.
posted by Beta Fishy @ 9:38 AM
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2 Comments:
Hey, hey hey!!!!!!!!! HEY!!!!!!
What did I tell you about grilled cheese sandwiches???!!!
And I will have you know: just from your writing and my reading,
you have Someone in California who cares. And I worry about your mind playing trix on you, makin you think you NEED so & so to MAKE you happy or whole or content. You already got whatever it takes & you will find someone to share that with soon enuf. I say bide your time and cultivate your sense of patience and humour and beauty.
(giggle) Well - you do have to appreciate a good grilled cheese sandwich sometimes, but I like mine with salsa - extra spicy, thank you very much. Yeah - I worry about my mind sometimes too. I need a mantra I think.
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